and jealousy is not a virtue

I feel like a terrible, terrible person. I know so many people who are graduating from college, getting engaged, married, and actually going places in their lives. I am so happy for each and every one of them, but I'm also just a little bit jealous. I feel as though I am stuck. From where I'm standing, graduation seems ages away. And Matthew and I have talked about getting married, but he doesn't want to get married until I graduate. Some days, that is SO HARD to fathom. I just want to feel like I'm going places in my life, too. Instead, I just feel terribly stuck. I don't think God gifted me with the virtue of patience.